Are You Special?
Posted by MichaelApr 17
Earlier today, I was attempting to share with someone a little about the Ego to Essence work that I feel so passionate about. I talked about it beginning with a sincere willingness to let go of the ego’s root fear of NOT BEING ENOUGH as well as the the ego’s compensatory desire and attachment to somehow BEING SPECIAL, in order to create a space for ones individual-unique Essence to shine through. She asked a great question; “In God or The Universes eyes, Am I not already special?” Aren’t the songs that I write special enough?
What would your answer be ?
I asked her what her dream was? Her first answer was: ” To be famous; a star-maybe even be on Oprah.” She laughed. I asked if she could get quiet and still enough make contact with this present moment, her own physical body and since the difference between connecting with the most recent song that she wrote and the dream of being famous. After what felt like a two minute pause, Her words were: ” When I imagine the song that I wrote I feel a deep feeling of satisfaction in my soul. When I do as you ask and imagine being famous, it’s like I want it with a kind of desperation, and kind of leave my body and feel a sort of agitation”
A shaman might call this a “soul flight’ and recommend performing a soul retrieval.
YES, you are special-as a unique expression of “I AM.”
As we begin to let go of our ego’s fear of being not enough and let
go of our ego’s desire to be special, unique and somehow superior, the
confusion that sometimes arises is something like ….In my spiritual essence,
isn’t there something about me that is special and unique? YES, you in
your essence is a unique, a one of a kind expression of the Whole , or Oneness. Or,
you could say you have a pair of eyes through which God can have a
unique perspective. Maybe you’ re a cell in God’s body. Trust that it’s been
your ego’s desire to be special and attempt to prove that you are that is at the
root of your dissatisfaction. The radiant expression of the true Self wanting to shine through, from your essence has no need to feel special. It is already full, free and limitless.
More about integrating the Shadow tomorrow.
What I’m most present to tonight is the difference in Ego specialness, the unique Self and it’s inherent specialness, to be fully claimed, experienced and expressed, with a kind of humility that one can only have if surrendered to and grounded in being lived by Life-or Spirit itself.
Ken Wilber states that “The Essential Self can’t be transcended” In other words, for me, I can’t transcend my intuition, creativity & ingenuity or strategic thinking. Yet I can, and have transcended my egos fear of being weak and not good enough AND desire to look strong and confident.
I am with you now in my Essence and with humility, and as best that I can, expressing the strengths with which I’ve been given, in service to the transformation, healing and conscious evolution of Life - and that is enough.
Here is an interview with Ken and others from the Integral Institute that may shed more light: http://integrallife.com/node/40914.
Until we meet again,
In Wholeness, Michael
3 comments
Comment by GraphicBass on April 18, 2009 at 4:15 pm
Interesting post, but I can’t say I like the “you’re a cell in God’s body” statement.
In my world-world, we’re each a partner with the God-being (whoever that is in our personal definition), bringing our uniqueness to accompany God’s totality, but never in subservience or oblivion.
I would not like to think I’m a cell in God’s big toe (or somewhere worse!), with God giving no more thought to me than I do a big toe cell in my own body. Perhaps that’s ego or something, but surely God is bigger than that, and can accommodate me as a peer.
Of course, with that statement, I just qualified for this week’s Stoning Party by the local fundamentalists. Better keep my real identify a secret!
I have other thoughts about why trying to be special is not a bad thing, nor having the ego that wants to be special something to be purged. But that’s another argument.
Later…
GB
Comment by Jackie on April 18, 2009 at 6:22 pm
I would argue that none of us transcend our ego, nor should we. If it is enough to be a cell in God’s body, then God would not have created so many gloriously complex individuals. God was already complete. It is the individual expression of love and the creative ways that we bring light into the world that has multiplied and expanded God, thereby making God more special. It was God’s plan and design that individuality should exist or God would have been content to be alone. God expanded through our individuality.
To say you have transcended your ego’s fear of being weak is in and of itself a declaration of being special. I am special in that I have transcended. If you have truly transcend your ego, would you have a need to declare this? I would submit that no one ever transcends the ego. The ego is key to our creative expression of Love and it allows us to have the opportunity for growth of the soul. If we never hurt, if we are never bruised by another’s ego, we never grow.
It is in the pain of ego that we are forced to re-evaluate our way of being and our beliefs. It is the ego that needs to love and give love. Without the ego’s desire to be special we are not compelled to be with our fellow souls in the body of God. We are not compelled to create and expand.
The challenge is to create the Aware ego of which you speak. This is the ego that is aligned with God and works in the light. It is the unaware ego that seeks to be special in inappropriate ways.
We all need to be special and to be special in the eyes and hearts of others. The larger the capacity for love in a soul, the more it needs to give and receive love, and as a result, feel special every time that connection is made. We are meant to feel special because this is why God created us. God wants us to feel special every time we connect to others with our divine gifts.
Comment by Michael on April 18, 2009 at 7:47 pm
I appreciate your comment.
When we transcend, whether it be our consciousness transcending our ego, or a molecule transcending a cell, it’s always “transcend AND include” that which we have transcended, never removed or cut off from, only having grown complexity and with more/larger perspective.
In our Essence our deepest desire is to feel Wholeness/Oneness or united with the creator. The paradox is that the more that we try to prove our specialness the more we experience separateness.This stops the flow of Life and causes pain (like a cancer cell). The more that we simply allow Life to be expressed through us via the gifts/natural strengths/core value that we are endowed with, the more special and connected we feel.
The first stage ego [Edging God Out] is rooted in fear, driven by the need to survive, experiences it’s separateness and reacts to life with protecting and getting/proving behaviors.The second stage ego [Expressing God Outrageously] or you could say enlightened ego…our Christ conscious ego is grounded in LOVE, inspired by the desire for Wholeness/Oneness and partners with life through connecting and expressing behaviors. This paradoxically is accompanied with a humble knowing of our specialness AS a unique expression of the Divine and is experienced as what I refer to as the 5′P’s of Radical Wholeness-PEACE, PASSION, PURPOSE, POWER & PRESENCE.